unedited and uncut

I honestly don’t know why I haven’t posted in forever, or what is my hold up, its been like, idk, its like, kind of hard to explain. To be honest I haven’t felt good enough to be giving advice, I almost for awhile felt like who am I to be telling people about trivial things they haven’t even asked me about. I used to be pretty confident in doing this sort of thing, but my life was sort of spiraling after I lost my job in Jan. I felt like I was running from everyone and everything. When I think about how far I’ve come since jan it sort of brings tears to my eyes. My old life feels sort of like a distant memory. My old job the people I used to see on a regular bases it was almost like poof they are gone. Almost like a life I imagined. After all that dust and emotion settled I was frozen in fear and paralyzed in self doubt. Instead of making the most of my time I sat in my fear  in the black hole my mind created. I was so ashamed of myself, that I was literally doing NOTHING with my life, someone who tries there hardest to make the most out of things, I had no one to blame but myself. I’ve had a pretty privileged life. Ive had more opportunities than most and here I was doing NOTHING! It was crippling. I was completely STUCK in this cycle for no reason whatsoever. Somehow Ive been able to chip away at my dark space, and things got better, a lot better. I got a new job, grew closer to many friends, made new friends, and things slowly got better. everyday isn’t perfect, but things for the most part are good. I still have bad days but I’m not in that hole feeling hopeless anymore. I’m ready to start creating again with a little more clarity, and a lot more focus. I’m rebranding a little, a new layout is coming, new logo and graphics, color scheme and videossss! TorriSunshine is going to focus on FASHION, TRAVEL, BEAUTY, MENTAL HEALTH, AND MEDIA(MOVIES,MUSIC,BOOKS) I am so excited and cant wait to come back bigger and better!

I dont know if its the old school Taylor Swift I’m jamming out too or what but DAMN that felt good.

I still love you!

TorriSunshine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!